Day 7

It's been a week i din hear from you... And it's been 4 days since i heard something from you..

U know how unbearable it is? i never miss someone so painfully before... I cried almost everynight.. i feel like an idiot.. i tried to control but i just cant stop crying.. n everytime i have to hide my face from my frens, especially my hzmates.. i don't wanna let them see that i am such an idiot...

I dreamt of u last night.. i dreamt that u came bek surprisingly and came my room and gimme hugzzz.... I wish i din wake up... It was so painful to wake up...

I wish i wont be dreaming bout u anymore... At least i am happy that i din think of u so much during daytime already.. just at night, when i am alone i will think of u and become very sad...

I will continue to ask myself stop thinking bout u and make myself suffer... I used to be able to stop missing someone very easily.. i tot i can do it this time... but i failed...

I'm such an idiot.........

You don't know how much i suffer.... cos one of the thing i hate the most is missing someone who can't be reached.... DAMMIT!